Judge.

I just read a post on Aaron Ivey’s blog about how our world is not black and white, but in fact; full of color. [it brings up thoughts on being judgmental]… Why must we see this world with no depth, why must everyone be the exact same; didnt God make us 3-dementional, didnt He create us differently? Why must we ignore how God made us & refuse to see each person as they are? Why must we be unexcepting to who each person is. Why must we be so judgemental?

I have spent hours upon hours poundering on this world & this life. I have wondered what right and wrong really are. What does a “good person” really look like? But then again, why do we feel like its right for us to be judging others?

Each day, I am growing. I am not the same person I was yesterday and I wont be the same person tomorrow that I am today. I am in a season of life right now striving the think outside of my box, to live out of my comfort zone stepping into the unknown; trying to be/ live by nothing but the Spirit… allowing God to mold me into the new person He wants me to be. It more than amazes me how God influences me through the people around me… I have found, more than ever before, that God is placing people in my life to challenge my way of thinking, to challenge me to reach for more, to find new ways of growing, to find God everywhere, to find the hands of Jesus in every moment… to change ultimatly who I am, bettering me as a woman of God. My way of thinking, my thoughts, my likes and dislikes, my way of living has changed a lot in the last three months. Three months ago I decided I was no longer going to live this life for the ones around me; that I would now be livng this life for THE AUDIENCE OF ONE.

I have before writte on being sick and tired of living this life to the “Christian norm.” Although I have made the decision to live this life for THE AUDIENCE OF ONE,  I still struggle at times of feeling needed to live to the standards of ”Christian norm.” What the heck is this Christian norm. anway? Do any of us really know, or is this Christian norm. just the religion and law coming between what Jesus did on the cross; bridging the gap between us and God… Do we not realize Chrstianity is not religion, but a relationship.?

When I sit with my warm cup of coffee at Starbucks or just at the church to examine my own life; I often times find myself feeling like I have completly failed. I feel like everything I stand for, everything I believe in, everything I strive to be… was just thrown out the window. I failed at who I am; must less Christ in me. Where do I have room to judge, its not like I was the one who died on the cross; infact Christ died on the cross for me, because of MY sin. So what makes me think I can go and judge someone for the way they are choosing the live their life?

OH MY GOSH. AS I SIT HERE WRITING THIS, I AM ALSO LOOKING THROUGH RANDOM MYSPACES; FINDING ME JUDGING THEM & HOW THEY ARE LIVING THEIR LIFE… SERIOUSLY. EVERYTHING IM STRIVING TO BE, I AM COMPLETLY CONTRADICTING IN  EVERYWAY.

 It makes you wonder, will, we as humans; ever conquer this disease of judging? Or is this something we will all live with until we enter the gates of Heaven… either way; I ask God for strength & to learn from each experience.

I feel like I am just leaving this post un-ended; but I guess thats where your thoughts come in.

37 days until Honduras