cowboy boots

my dad has been wanting to buy my boots for years… today we went and bought some!

 

I love them!
Jenny

my love walked out the door

a long time ago.

Our culture, society and way of life; expects things to be quick fix and fast. And to speak truth; things eternal, well I would say are not quick and not fast, but instead are part of a process, part of a journey…
AS God STILL perfectly aligns and ordains things, today in church we talked about 2 Corinthians 13… this love that we so often connect to our lovers. Yes, we are to love our ‘lovers’… but I think this love chapter has SO much more to say about love than we give It credit for.

You can have faith, you can have biblical knowledge, you can have wisdom, you can have ministry, you can have amazing teaching abilities, you can be such a captivating preacher, you can have the gift of prophesy and of language, you could understand all of God’s secrets… but if you dont have love… it means nothing, you mean nothing.

When I realize this; I know nothing else matters. I know that all biblical knowledge, all the revelation that God has revealed to me, all the life changing experiences I have gone through, all the faith growing periods… they all mean nothing, unless I love!

Love is patient, love in kind, it does not envy, is does not boast, it is not proud, it is not rude, it does not demand its own way, it does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, and it keeps no record of being wrong. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with truth. Love never gives up, never loses faith. Love protects, love always trusts, always hopes, always perseverse. Love never fails.

My love walked out the door three months ago, my love gave up on you, my love lost hope, my love lost faith, my love got frustrated, my love stopped coming back, my love shut you out, my love got angry and worried. My love sucks.

If I loved you with my love… thats what would have happened.
But I learned how to love with God’s divine love… Because I am now loving you with His love, It now endures, It now hopes, It now has faith, It now is not jealous or prideful, or boastful, It does not get frustrated, It is paitent in His work, It is kind, It rejoices in truth. I HAVE to love you with His love, or nothing will ever happen. We will get no where in His work! It will all mean nothing.

Divinly loving,
Jenny

girls.

had fun with these girls tonight; a nice dinner @ tokyo bowl & a bit of chillin. : )

yay!
Jenny

WW09 Delayed

on a morning such as this;

It’s early, I have to be awake in less then 5 hours, and I am still awake.

In the midst of:
-crazy life
-the hardships
-the joys
-the failure
-the triumph
-the frustration
-the drive and fire
-the “God, I can’t do this anymore, I just messed up for the millionth time in a row, I don’t know what to do anymore, I need your healing touch, your change, your strength.”
-the “God, thank you for your victory, your strength, triumph, your will.”
-the I am so confused
-the I understand
-the hopeless end
-the endless hope
In the midst of it all; I am still choosing to praise God, even though every part of me and my flesh is screaming to figure it out on my own.
I am still choosing to trust and praise Him because deep inside I
know His will is always far better than mine could ever be; and I still want my life to be a response to His love and a reflection of His glory.

On a morning such as this; my heart needs revelation.
You ever had a friend who is in a season harder than any other. And this season seems to be lasting longer than all the other ones. They are on the ground and can’t seem to get back up. The enemy is kicking them harder and harder, the enemy won’t stop long enough for them to even try to stand up, and each blow seems lower and harder than the one before, ever been there?
Well, my heart is with them right now

But I have all hope. I believe God can pull people from impossible circumstances, I believe that God can redeem them, I beleive He will renew their hearts into passionate God Chasers and Christ Followers.
And on a morning such as this, I hold that hope closely to my heart.

Hopefull,
Jenny