Alive; part 2

Gosh, I just cant stop thinking about being alive. I cannot stop thinking about the question: ‘What makes me feel most alive?’

I feel like for the first time in a long time, I can hear and feel God longing for me to understand what it means to be alive. I am learning more deeply that God made us, man and woman, to be alike in His image. That man beholds certain characteristics of God’s heart, and woman beholds other charcteristics of God’s heart as well. Man and woman, in different, yet wonderful ways each portray and reflect God’s heart.

God has created us each to be different; each hold different gifts, different passions, each of us were created to be a part in the Body of Christ. And because each of us were created with differences, it means that what makes us feel most alive… is different.

For me, when I feel most alive, I feel like I am on my A game, I feel fierce, full of a power of love that cannot compare to another, I feel free, I feel passionate, and well full of life. When I feel most alive, I feel as if I am fulfilling the exact purpose that God longs for; love.

As crazy as this sounds… one of the things in this season of my life that makes me feel most alive is competing in cheerleading. There is something empowering about allowing God to work through my body in order to allow it to twist, turn, and contort my body in ways that should not be humanly possible. Yet, we have a God who does infact make it possible. There is something freeing in tumbling and flipping through the air like this life has no boundires. There is something powerful and fierce about lifting and throwing a girl my size in the air, and then catching her. There is something full of purpose when I am able to use every ounce of breath God gives me, to yell for and with a team that I consider my family. I dont know… God lead me to it, gave me a passion for it, and its one of the things within my life that makes me feel most alive. Cool how God works things for His glory.

From cover to cover, the Bible is a Story, a big letter composed of many smaller letters… and from beginning to end, alpha to omega… I am learning that God’s very heart-cry is to love and be loved. God, too wants to be loved. He says, ‘Why dont you choose Me?’ ‘You will find me.’ ‘Seek after me with all of your heart.’
My absolute favorite is in Psalms. In the 139th chapter it talks about how we can never escape the Spirit of God, we can never leave His presence, there is no where on this earth that we go, that God will not be there. God even says, in darkness, you willnot flee from me; God also says to us, ‘I delight in your thoughts child, the amount of thoughts that I delight in, cannot even be numbered!’ (139:17-18)
-We are so important to God, that He promises us that we cannot go anywhere in this world, that He will not be.

…Everything about those verses is the heart-cry of God longing for us to love Him, to be with Him, for us to pursue Him, and seek after Him with all of our hearts.

So, like I asked the other night, what is that thing within your life that makes you feel most alive? Find that one thing, and while seeking after that thing, seek after our God!

Jenny