“go big or go home, but don’t go home before the miracle happens.”
This absolutely is the way I attempt to live my life. I believe that this life is about living it in the fullest way to which I know how. I also believe that miracles happen. every. single. day. I am often impulsive, distracted and drawn to the perhaps seemingly more exciting things. However, those seemingly more exciting things often hold little value. If I center my focus and stick around long enough, there is a good chance I’ll get to experience the miracle in one fashion or another.
“wait for god. take heart. and dont quit. wait for what god will do.”
psalm 27:14, 130:5
I am not God… although I sometimes do believe I can control things. But, ya I am not God. I have a very small perspective on what is REALLY going on. I can only see what is going on tangibly around me. Despite that, God really is working on so much more than I could ever see or understand. He is orchestrating my life and the lives of others every day, every moment. Who knows what He is doing in your heart and mine in this very moment… only He does. And because of this truth, a miracle could literally happen at any time.
The question for me often is not whether I am going to go big, but whether I am willing to go big and THEN be patient and wait for the miracle. I don’t like waiting. I mainly don’t like waiting because waiting means trusting Him. The act of being patient and waiting is an art of doing so with a good attitude, of doing the footwork and then sitting on my hands, letting Him do His handiwork without me trying to control and manipulate the outcomes. Taking my control out of situations leaves me to trusting that God will do for good as He has promised. Yep… I suck at this. I suck at this because I do one of two things: I either worry so much about the outcome that I try to step back in and maneuver things a certain way so it turns out how I expect (where there is actually no miracle at all because “it is of my doing”) OR I get tired of waiting and I get distracted and move on to the next exciting thing… missing the miracle all together. Will I let go and wait? Or will I get distracted and move on?
The beauty of miracles is that they take on many different “appearances.” If I am willing to wait and I am not careful… I’ll miss the miracle. If I am not focused and present in the moment, there is a good chance that I will indeed miss that miracle. I don’t want to do that. I have yet to experience anything in this life more exuberant and liberating than the miracles themselves.
don’t go home before the miracle happens.
this is, sheerly, my soul.
