We are only asked to love, to offer hope to the many hopeless. We don’t get to choose all the endings, but we are asked to play the rescuers. We won’t solve all mysteries and our hearts will certainly break in such a vulnerable life, but it is the best way. We were made to be lovers bold in broken places, pouring ourselves out again and again until we’re called home.

• that God never gives me more than I can handle
• that God is ALWAYS faithful
• that there is NOTHING too big for God
• there there is NOTHING that God can’t conquer
• that God’s love is far greater & far bigger than anything of this world
• that God places people in our lives to be Him to us
• that God places people/ events in our lives to reveal things to us & teach us
• that Jesus’ death on the cross is the moment in time when the devil no longer had any control over the world
• that we can obtain Jesus’ resurrection power

Jenny

I have talked a lot about cheer on here before, but… I am going to do it at least once more (but expect a few more!) ha

It’s for sure been a bitter sweet time. I am about six months away from closing the door of cheerleading… I thought and prayed a lot about doing cheer at Tech, but with my back injury I need to let my body heal because as a friend pointed out to me, “Your body is a temple.” And she’s right, it is. So I am not trying out for cheer at Tech, and will pray about trying out my second year… but that is a totally different battle for a completely different time!!! ha. Anywho, so it’s all been bitter sweet.

Football season ended pretty quickly because our football team sucked… sorry boys. Which lead into a quick competition season. Like I have mentioned before our routines are just about the hardest two and a half minutes of your life! All the practice that goes into it all for just two and a half mintues of gut & glory… it’s crazy I will admit! But I love it!

Gymnastics and cheerleading have both been a part of me for over 15 years. The thought of not doing it almost kills me. I remember that statement on days like today (: Today consisted of two different practices, two hours each. Frustration, tears, hurts, injuries, sweat, blood… it happens daily(: & because of these things I am brought back to a verse in Romans, “suffering and trials produce endurance” (5:3). If you look up the word “endurance” in the thesaurus a few of the words that show up are: guts, heart, and strength. In order to live a life sold out for Jesus you MUST have gut, heart, and strength, among other things. Which then leads me to my all-time favorite question… “What makes you feel most alive?”

Which then circles back around the cheer! Among a few other things within my life, I feel most alive when I am competing! When I feel like I’m on my A-game, when I feel fierce, free, full of passion, full of love, full of power… that’s when I feel most alive! There is something risky and empowering about allowing God to work through my body in order to allow it to twist, flip, and contort my body in ways that should be humanly impossible. YET, we have a God who does infact make it possible. There is something freeing about tumbling and flipping through the air like this life has no boundries. There is something risky and full of gut when I throw a girl my size in the air, let her flip and twist, and in a matter of seconds… I am catching her. There is something full of purpose and passion when I am able to use every ounce of breathe God gives me to yell for and with a team I consider my family.

This stuff is a part of me! We have competition this weekend, and nationals on the 28th/29th! That means 19 days of competing left… bitter sweet my friends, bitter sweet!

Alive,
Jenny

LOVE how when I “delight in the Lord, He gives me the desires of my heart” (Psalm 37:4). LOVE how “He works all things out for the good of those who love Him” (Romans 8:28). LOVE how Jesus works stuff out!

I absoultely love Tech. I LOVE how when I “delight in the Lord, He gives me the desires of my heart” (Psalm 37:4). Everyone always asks me why I picked Tech. The reason I first thought about Tech is kind of silly, but is SO me. I have a brother who went to Baylor, a sister who is at A&M, and another sister who is at LSU… I love ‘em all… but I want to be different, want to walk my own walk, want to do my own thing. So, I picked a school none of them went to. ha (: And I think in all of that, Jesus showed me where He wanted me to go. My heart was sold, despite the fact that I hadn’t been up there to check it all out… I so delighted in the Lord and in all of this He surely gave me the desires of my heart. I almost reluctantly asked God to close that door if it wasn’t where HE wanted me to go. (After praying, and searching about Tech, my heart was so set on it, I prayed that reluctantly because I didn’t want God to close that door… but knew His plan is always best…)  

I LOVE how “He works all things out for the good of those who love Him” (Romans 8:28). I was anxious and worried about the whole process. I didn’t make the SAT score that I wanted, blah, blah, blah. But I knew that God would work it all out… because He ALWAYS does. So, I did my application and sent it out (to ONLY Tech). During this time I had a few friends advise my to apply to more than one school for “safety.” First, I am hard-headed and when I have my heart and mind set on something… only God can stop me! ha. Second, HE gave me the desires of my heart and I trust Him… why would I back down and do something that God has given me no desire to do… just for “safety?” haha. I kept telling people, no I’m not applying anywhere else… this is THE place… God is faithful. Just being sarcastic and light-hearted me, I know tell people “Ha, now try tellin me that God doesnt come through, or keep promises, or open doors!” (:  Anyways, the application process typically takes at least three to six weeks to find out anything… I got my acceptance letter less than two weeks later. Hey, Go God!

I LOVE how Jesus works stuff out. I had a Tech visit planned before I sent out my app just to visit the campus. I recieved my acceptence letter a week before my visit… so when I got up there, I could officially call myself a Radier, and see what was to come! While I was there, I was able to pick out my dorm room… the exact one! I was able to visit a potential church that I may call my home church in the future! AND, through close friends was able to meet some other really awesome people and begin establishing cool friendships! LOVE how Jesus works stuff out!

LOVin Jesus,
Jenny

“There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens… a time to be silent and a time to speak.”
-Ecclesiastes 3:1,7-

I believe my season of being silent has come to an end.
In my next posts, I will catch ya up on what Jesus has shown me (:

Jenny

‘There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens… a time to be slient and a time to speak.”
-Ecclesiastes 3:1,7-

This season and time to be slient. Be back when this particular season is over, my friends!

Jenny

Officially accpeted to Tech today! WRECK ‘EM!

We shall never live in fear for there is nothing to fear.

“God is love. There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.”
-1 John 4: 16, 18

No fear,
Jenny

Sometimes you forget how much you love something until you almost get it taken away.

I have had a back injury for quite some time now because of cheerleading due to a little tumbling accident back in May. I have been to my sports doctor a few times and went to another doctor who specializes in backs today… This doctor suggested that I quit cheerleading to make sure my back heals & that I have no long term effects on my back when I get older. I didnt like this answer, and told him I was willing to take the risk for my last year of cheerleading despite the pain I have now and may have when I get older.

So tonight, I realized I need to be more thankful more often for the thing I love doing. I never know when it will end, so I need to take each moment for what it is… & passionately love it for what it is!

Thankful,
Jenny

• this month has brought about a lot of change.
• those changes were not easy, but I chose to trust God in His plans anyways.
• this season is one that brings about many emotions, none of which I would trade for anything.
• giving my testimony was awesome last night… freeing
• God brought me back to Isaiah 58, a chapter in which I had not looked at in a long time
• “Shout it aloud, do not hold back.” this was on my heart as I shared my story with others.
• “to loose the chains of injustice, and untie the cords of the yoke, set the oppressed free and break every yoke.” Also something that God did within me, and I know is doing in others… Praise Jesus
• I am broken. My heart is broken for what breaks God’s.
• Although my heart is hurting, I would’nt place myself anywhere else.
• My brokenness has lead me to humility.
• which has lead me to my knees all day seeking, pursuing & running after Jesus, His heart, and His words.
• I love being broken.
• Loving others makes me feel most alive.
• Loving others usually causes brokenness.
• & if thats the cost of loving others… bring it on!

Broken,
Jenny